Hello, I’m Rhian,
I’m 41 years old, I have 3 children and a very patient and loving husband. (I say patient and loving because there are very few men who would still be here after what I’ve been through over the last few years with my health! And the impact it had on our relationship).
So am I grateful for him. And grateful for my family.
So what am I talking about…????
Well…..I’ve suffered with binge eating and comfort eating my whole life. Starting my first diet at a very well known slimming club age 10. At age 18 I was diagnosed with Hashimotos Thyroiditis (sometimes wonder if this hormone imbalance and attack on my own body was created by extreme dieting) and at age 24, at this point holding down a very stressful corporate job, I had my first depressive episode. I have gone on to suffer a number of times with clinical depression, sometimes triggered by a stressful or traumatic incident and sometimes just because I have become unbearably sad for absolutely no reason. It’s a tough battle and difficult to understand…I know my husband and family members have all struggled with understanding it and have all tried so hard to help. Living with someone who suffers with depression is difficult. Again – I am so grateful for the love and support in my life.
Each episode I would get fatter, and fatter…because of the comfort eating!! There were days when I would drop the kids at school, call at the supermarket and spent a good $20 dollars on sugary food like doughnuts, chocolate, biscuits….I’d go home – eat the lot….attempt to hide the evidence and then I’d retreat to bed….ashamed of my behaviour, feeling even worse than I had before I binged and fighting an uncontrollable urge to sleep – which I now understand was my blood sugar spikes…
I have had times when I was skinny….I’ve ranged from a size 4 to a size 24……but even the skinny times I would be obsessive and it didn’t last very long because I just couldn’t maintain that level of control. I had postnatal depression after my twins were born and throughout the next 10 years of my life, spiralled. I had not motivation, no self esteem, no self worth. I really didn’t like myself. And I was so unhappy.
I eventually ate my way to 110KG and a type 2 diabetes diagnosis age 41 years.
Taking Glucophage didn’t register with me…I was already taking Thyroid medication and anti-depressants. It was just another tablet. Until January 2017 when my doctor told me I had to start injecting every day. There you have it! An epiphany! A total smack in the face with a chair that was very much needed and I realised that I was killing myself with food.
So I began my journey to reverse Type 2 Diabetes, lose fat, gain lean muscle, get healthy in both body and mind and learn to like myself. I’ve had a complete lifestyle and mindset change and it has really changed my whole life. (not to be cheesy!!!) But little by little I am finding myself, becoming happier, more successful every day and all in all I am focusing on being the best version of myself.
I am so delighted that you have come to read my blog. It will focus on wellness, nutrition, exercise and everything in between!
I hope you like it.
With love and authentic, natural sweetness,